40

How have you been? Hanging in there? Well, I turned 40. That's the big news around here. After a year of dreading my big birthday, the day came with relative ease and I can even add, with peace. There were a few reasons that I wanted to skip this birthday if that were an option and they don't have a whole lot to do with my aging body. I'm not excited about that part either but my real issues with 40 is that my young mother life is ending.


 I always dreamed of babies and a house full of kids and now, life is going to change. In the next short 10 years, I will have pretty much all my kids out of the house with the exception of Tate who will most likely always be my buddy. If all goes as planned, I will be sending 3 boys on a mission. I will have sent my kids to college. I will become a grandmother. I will probably have 1-2 daughter-in-laws and a son-in-law. I think all this is great but the idea of not having my children in the same house with me makes my mother heart ache. That is a lot of changes in just 10 years. 


But, in the past few months as I have talked with my oldest about his upcoming college semester, his mission and a what kind of wife he wants, I have become sort of excited. I get to have daughter-in-laws! I get a son-in-law! I get to have grandbabies filling my house and putting little fingerprints on my walls. As much as I am sad that my family is changing, I am happy at the same time. It will be good. I am excited to see what my children will do with their lives. I am excited to see them start their own path. I am excited to a part of what happens next for them. Motherhood will never end. It just changes and I think I am OK with that now. 


With that said, I need to get to they gym. I am getting older. I am feeling it. Time to spend a little "me" time on making 40 look good. 


Thanks for all the birthday wishes! It was a great day!