Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Solo time

Sorry for the lack of posts. I don't even have time to blog this right now but I have to keep in touch so you know I am still thinking about you all. I promise to do better when I return.

I am leaving. I am packing my bags and going away. No kids. 4 days. 5 moms. The beach. A book. A whole lot of guilt.

There is one thing that I was not created to do and that is leave my kids. The strings that are attached to my babies are extra strong for me. I was given a triple dose of the bonding glue that comes when a child comes from your womb. In the 16 and 1/2 years since I have had babies, I have been away for a total of 5 nights from them. I just don't like to miss the "good nights" and "good mornings" but this trip is necessary. I am forcing myself to go out that door tomorrow bright and early. Don't get me wrong, I am going to have a great time and the kids will be just fine - I just wish I didn't feel so wrong about the whole situation.

I am going because......

I am tired and want to sleep for 4 days
My kids need to miss me
I need to miss them
I need quiet time to think, to be inspired for them and for me
I need to remember what it is like to be just me, not a mom or a wife


My 8 year old looked at the one page of instructions I typed up for the Mr. Mom who will be caring for the brood and said, "Is that all the instructions you are giving dad?" Yep. I assured him he will do just fine.

"Who is going to do the laundry while you are away?"

"The same guy who is going to make your breakfast."

"But I won't be able to yell, MOM! and Dad won't let me yell, DAD!"

"That is why I am leaving, so no one will yell MOM! for four days."

"But I like to yell it so I know you are there."

(heart melting)

My kids don't know what it is like to not have a mom to yell for at their every whim. Precisely why I need to be absent for a few days. Wish I could take all you overworked moms with me. Maybe we will have an Enlightened Homemaker cruise next year. Save your bucks. We all deserve it.

So I will talk to you all on Monday, refreshed and inspired. My 10 year old will no doubt be wearing his favorite football jersey everyday while I am away since I ban it on a daily basis and my 16 year old won't shave, the glass door won't get cleaned 3 times a day and no one will get gourmet pancakes in the morning. But, I know they will be loved and bellies full. They are in good hands and I think the man of the house will miss me a little too, and that is also a good thing. I really want to be missed.




8 comments:

The Health Seeker's Kitchen said...

Have a wonderful vacation! We all need a few of those empty, relaxing days. I am glad you are going to get a few of them. Have fun:)

Jayme said...

You girls have a great vacation! You all deserve it. Have a blast!

Dyan said...

Enjoy. I am leaving on Monday for a cruise and you said it best as to why I am going. Have fun.

Tracey said...

Amen to all of it! Enjoy and have fun... I'm jealous.

MagicSprinkles said...

GOOD FOR YOU SHARI!!!! HAve a GREAT TIME!!!

diane said...

My heart is full of gladness for you. And for your family.
I am looking forward to seeing you when you get back. :-)
Enjoy, and bring back beautiful stories.

Terri Burges Hirning said...

Have fun lady, you deserve it! Lets do lunch when you get back. I have loads to tell you. He's trying an all day class starting Monday. So that means lets schedule lunch QUICK in case it doesn't work out, LOLOLOL.

Annabeth said...

Wow, that is so awesome!!!!!
I understand about extra dose of glue with those mother/child ties.
I hope you enjoyed your time away. You are wonderful!!!