Wednesday, July 28, 2010
My daughter shot this hot , fresh faced picture of me as I went for a morning run. Don't be fooled by the smile. Totally fake. I guess she shot it because the fact that I was actually running was picture worthy. Whatever the case, you get to see me without makeup.
I took the last month off. I didn't pack my running shoes to the beach. I didn't even look at them for most of the month. I didn't feel guilty at all. I thought I was showing my body who was in charge and that I could take a little break.
Problem: This hot girl just turned 38 this week. On her very birthday morning, she came to the stark realization that she could no longer take a month off. It may have been something to do with the fact that her upper arms were jiggling at a faster rhythm than her toothbrush was moving or the fact that she has chosen to wear the "loose" shorts for the past few days. Whatever the case, taking a month off is no longer an option.
On her very birthday morning, she put on the lonely running shoes and hit the hotter than h--- AZ pavement. Hated every minute of it. A little internal whining going on.
However, she was back at it again today and started the internal whining again. Then, she decided to take a moment to think about her attitude.
She was at her 20 year high school reunion planning meeting the night before. Two girls (twin sisters) had just finished their third marathon and were training for the Ironman (whatever!!). Then, she thought some more. Another hero, Uncle Jim. He just battled stage 4 cancer this last year. He is a grandpa. He is running a marathon. Seriously. Whatever was I doing whining at this very moment? I realized.....I really have no idea what it means to do hard things.
I will never run a marathon. I have no desire, ever. But.....I want to have drive and determination and a body that allows me to feel good in my own skin (preferably without underarm jiggles.) I want to be able to persevere in my aging years and kick some serious butt like Uncle Jim no matter what trial comes my way. I want to be able to push myself beyond what I think I can do.
Why? Because taking a month off did not feel good. I thought I was giving myself a much deserved break but in turn, I felt tired, fluffy and unmotivated. What good is that? I was only hurting myself.
Once again, my running post has nothing to do with running. It has everything to do with becoming the best person I can be and doing hard things is all part of the scenario.
The new school year is here. It is time to recommit and get on a program. Grab a sheet of paper. Write down your action plan. Whatever genre it may be and like they say.....JUST DO IT!! No excuses.
Posted by Shari Goodman at 10:02 PM